Cutsies and Party favors.

Wow! It's been a really long time since I've posted anything!

So I'll dive right in. My sister is 24 wks pregnant and getting married on May 16th. She will be around 7months pregnant by then. She just found out shes having a little baby girl!!! Her fiance was upset though because he was just so preoccupied with wanting a boy, but I think he's coming around. I know that when he sees her for the first time, he will fall in love instantly. Me and my sister keeping looking at little clothes, and I already told her that she is going to be SO tired of hearing "awwwww" and "soo cute!!" very soon.

The only thing with this guys, it sounds so perfect, everyone happy... It's not. My sister is bipolar ( to the EXTREME!!! and I mean, you cant even imagine her outburst or 'episodes' as I call them) and yells at her fiance EVERY day. and not just normal yelling.. its screaming. Its getting really bad since shes been pregnant, even worse than before, and she was pretty bad even when she wasnt pregnant.

She has her episodes and no one knows what to do to handle her. She kicks her fiance -Thomas- and hits him, spits in his face, throws things at him, and even just holds onto him. Then she'll start saying things like shes going to kill herself and she should die and shes going to kill herself and the baby. All sorts of crazy things. But Mel just doesnt see things the way other people do. A fight this bad will have all started with Thomas changing the station on the radio. Thats it.

If ANYONE has ANY sort of advice for this sort of problem with a family member, PLEASE let me know everything you have to offer. I feel so bad for her fiance because he is just at his end and is breaking down more and more each day. He wants to be here for his child, but he doesnt want to spend the rest of his life being miserable.


Enough of that! On to a more positive note, I turned 21 on Sunday!! WOO FOR ME! I bought my first pack of beer yesterday. lol, not as awesome as I though, but oh well. I'm really just glad to be old enough to be able to drink in public and be in a car drunk (as long as I'm not driving, of course) . I still havent gone out anywhere, like a bar or club. But I'm not really interested in clubs or bars. I'd rather sit at home with a case of beer/wine with a best friend. I will go out eventually, but I'm pretty sure when I do it will be with just my girlfriends, cause boys always ruin everything!! Hahaha.

At my 21st party, we even had a keg. Lots of people showed up, but I honestly dont think some of them even knew it was my B-day party, cause some didnt even say happy birthday to me. I think they just heard 'keg' and came running!! But thats ok, I had a good time. And I had my best friends and close friends there! So it was a pretty awesome night.

Me and my best friends. (Just 2!-My internet is just too slow to add too many!!)





I'm the not so blonde in one, and the only blonde in the other! Haha

Those are my 2 best friends in the world! Becca(blonde) and Amanda(brunette). I dont know what I would do without them.

Anyways, thats only a mini update and not very much of anything. But, I've come to the end of my writing tonight.

Love lots, Me.

One Word

1. Where is your cell phone? Desk.
2. Your significant other? Work.
3. Your hair? Messy
4. Your mother? Karen
5. Your father? Jim
6. Your favorite thing? Drinks!
7. Your dream last night? Strange
8. Your favorite drink? Lone-star (beer)
9. Your dream/goal? Happiness
10. The room you're in? Living
11. Your hobby? Reading
12. Your fear? Alone
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Content
14. Where were you last night? Here
15. What you're not? Dull
16. Muffins? Cranberry
17. One of your wish list items? Traveling
18. Where you grew up? Austin
19. What are you wearing? Clothes
20. Your pets? ZeroDelilahPugslyBaby(4Dogs) RamonaPosieBoobooFluffyWinkyMissyShooshooMidnightSallyLeo(10cats) (Cant do all that in one word!! yeah... my mom has ALOT of cats!!)
21. Your computer? over-used
22. Your life? adjustable
23. Your mood? Eager
24. Missing someone? Friends
25. Your car? Dirty
26. Something you're not wearing? Socks
27. Favorite store? many
28. Your summer?Texas!
29. Your favorite color? green
30. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
31. Last time you cried? week

Wow!! That was alot harder to do than it looks! Copy and try it for yourselves!

Puppies!

Delilah had puppies. About 9 weeks ago. Haha. One of them is actually being sold tomorrow, and he is everyone's favorite. They are going to be awesome dogs.

Mikey, Pugsly, Little Girl


Delilah and her ball.

Turns out, we never got rid of Delilah. And that whole having our own place, thats gone. The land lord lady... well, thats a completely different story. I have to have time for that one! Anyways, I'll do alittle post maybe later!

Thoughts.

Just another little update while I have the chance.

I'm not preggers, Yay! But one of my best friends just had a baby yesterday. I'm so excited to meet the little guy. I've never known a baby before, sounds strange, but I've just never known anyone who had one! Not one who was still an actual baby, anyways.

So now me and Eric are doing better, for now. But he quit his job, and I never had one. But he now has a part time job so he can make a little bit of money while still having time to look for a better paying full time job. Problem is, he doesnt seem to be looking for a better job. And keeps insisting that I get my act together and get a job. But I have an actual reason. I had to go and get another social security card. It should be arriving within this week, so I have to wait til it comes to even apply anywhere cause no matter what or where it is you apply, you have to have a S.S. card.

I might get a good paying night job. The job is you sit there and watch kids sleep. It would be hard for me to stay awake all night and it would make the days off I have really weird cause I would want to sleep all day and never get a chance to see anyone. But, I guess thats better than not being able to pay the electric or the rent.

Speaking of rent, I have a money order for that but havent sent it yet- I need to do that... probably A.S.A.P. And the electric is coming up on the 8th.. and its been pretty high lately, basically $200. So i fear what it might be now that we've been using the A/Cs.

Another something that stinks. The girl dog we just got, Delilah, we have to get rid of her. I know she has to go, shes not what we're looking for, even though shes so pretty and adorable. But I'm scared to give her to someone I don't know. I'm scared that since shes a pit bull, whoever gets her is going to put her on a chain and just use her for breeding. That's so messed up.. it makes me sad to think that if I let Delilah go her life might be that way, and it would be because I couldnt take care of her. I'll have to make sure no mexicans get her. I'm sorry if thats offensive, but I live in Texas, and the town I live in is more than 50% hispanic. Most of the minoritys here just want pitbulls to show off how tough they are. I've seen their dogs, mean and chained up in a back yard. Delilah is waaay to active for that. She will spend all day in the backyard if i let her.

Anyways. I cant think of anything else to write at this moment.

I dont have internet so I rarely ever write anymore. So anyone who actually was enjoying my blog, I offer my best apology; I'm sorry. But anyways, heres alittle review of my past few months.

So having my own house is good. Paying the actual bills is not.

We have another pit bull now, shes a year old. She is all white with 2 fawn patches over her ear and eye. Shes adorable, her name is Delilah.

Eric and I are still having problems. We were doing great for a while but we havent been so good lately, or I havent been. I've been feeling neglected and unappreciated. He's barely been home for the past two weeks so that alone is causing me alot of stress. Also, I thought I might be pregnant cause my period was 2 weeks late. Its now two weeks later and I was thinking I might still be cause I'm having all these symptoms and he actually got home before 9 or 10 last night. So I told him my suspicions last night and instead of getting a hug and telling me everything will be alright, he told me I needed to stop spending all my time in the house and that I should go somewhere after we eat. He then proceeded to tell me he is mad at me about something that happened along time ago and that we shouldnt talk about it now cause he will get mad and want me to leave. I dont know what he's talking about, but who cares if it was along time ago.

It just is horrible that here I am, neglected, maybe pregnant, no one to talk to, and he tells me he's mad at me?? God. Makes me feel absolutely fantastic. I wanted to talk to him more about what if I am. What are we gonna do?

Anyways, I have to go now. try to up date later.

Stupid Thing

Hi guys. For some reason I'm having trouble with my header picture. It wont center itself. It was fine yesterday and today it's retarded. So I'm going to be messing with it for awhile! Just letting ya'll know.

Only the cool kids do that

So I'm extremely excited! Around the end of January I'll be moving into a new place! It's 10 minutes from where I live now. The rent is only $350, for a 2 bed, 2 bath, single wide, on land (not including utilities).

The real reason I'm excited though is that this will be the first time, in my life, that I will not be living with a parent or sibling! I can walk around with no pants on, be as loud as I want during the day, not have to worry about if my sister is sleeping (she has a night job), and not have to "let my Dad know" if we are going to have people over. Everyone Else's laundry wont always be in the washer and drier. No more having to clean up after 5 other people! No one eating my damn sandwich meat.

I know that I wont be able to do everything that I want to. Eric likes to act like my guardian, and in a way, he is, he takes care of me. But that's okay, I do the same thing to him. If I really disapprove or disagree with something, he doesn't do it.

I'm sure living with just my boyfriend, (and maybe my best friend -decision is still up) will present me with it's own problems. I don't want to do this and then have to hear "I told you so" from my parents. I want this. One way or another, I hope I never have to move back in with my parents. I don't even care if I have to starve, I could use the lack of food anyways.

I don't know if we'll have internet or not. Eric wants to get internet and cable, but I don't think we'll be able to afford it. We'll have to see. For those of you who don't know, I don't have a job. It's not that I don't want to work, but I only have one car. Eric makes way more than I would if I had a job, so it's only logical that he has a job, not me, if it has to be one or the other.

So back to the beginning. I'm excited! Finally starting a new chapter in my life. It's about damn time.